Your life is not defined by your failures or your current challenges, and though you may feel that you are not where you want to be in your life, do not define yourself by your mistakes or the past. Instead, put your power in the present moment and choose what you feel is the next right move to get towards where you want to go.
Do not blame the system or the people around you that you feel are holding you back with drama and obstacles. Instead, as hard as it is, accept that these people and these systems are what they are. You can’t change them. You can’t fight them and win. You will only lose energy. Your smartest course of action is to work on acceptance, and point yourself towards making the next right move so you can transcend the muck.